I am overwhelmed with love, thinking of each one of you, fasting, sacrificing, for our little guy! When I started fasting, I was praying that when we go to the doctor tomorrow, that the doctor would be inspired, would know what to do next, that we wouldn't have to travel to the Mayo clinic. I was scared of the challenges that the unknown presents. I was worried about the effect on our family, on Kyra and Kyle, on everything. But, as I sat in sacrement meeting today, all I felt was peace. For the first time, I felt that regardless of what happens, it will be okay. That regardless of where we have to go, it will be okay. That our family will be okay. We have such a great support system, through all of you, that we will be okay.
Then in Sunday school, the teacher told the story of Moses. Moses was told that if he held his arms up, then they would prevail in battle. As he grew tired, Aaron and Her helped him hold up his arms, and in the end, they were victorious. To demonstrate she then had one of the brethern come up and hold up his arms to the side, and she began to put a couple books in each one of his hands. As I watched him grow tired, I felt like I was looking at my life. That I have held up my hands for 3 months, and that I have grown tired. But then the teacher had two other brethern come up, and help him hold up his hands. At that moment, I realized that although I may be tired, that I need to continue to have faith, endure and symbolically continue to hold up my arms. But that we never have to hold up our arms by ourselves. So thank you. Thank you for fasting with us, for praying for us, for holding up our arms. I don't know when or how, but in the end, we will also prevail in our own battle.
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Great insight and I am glad the peace is coming. You have been continually in my thoughts and prayers. Good luck today!!! Let me know if you need help with Kyra & Kyle. We are just hanging out at our house today.
What a great example to have in sunday school. Hope that the weight continues to lift from you. Prayers are with you.
I thought of you all day yesterday. When we had our typical Sunday morning breakfast of waffles and strawberries, the kids asked Matthew why he wasn't eating anything. He explained that there was a little baby named Carter, that had a problem with swallowing, and he was fasting for him and his family to get better. Aidan and Emma, BOTH, pushed away their plates and said they wanted to fast, too. They made it to sacrament meeting without eating (we have sacrament at 11:00.) We are hoping and praying for all of you, especially Carter. I am so glad you were able to feel peace yesterday!
Thank you for the opportunity to fast in Carter's behalf. In my email to Mark last night, I asked him to also remember your family in his prayers. I tell him all the time how Kyra talks and talks about him. (she calls him, "Mark, your son that is in Africa on a mission".) She will randomly draw a picture for him during preschool and ask me to send it to him. You have a very special little family that we just love. Let us know if there is anything we can do....oxox
Jo-Anne
very sweet post sara. I got so much out of the lesson too. :)
I hope you get some answers, and you are right, in the end everything will be o.k. I have felt that many times as I have had to deal w/ my own struggles w/ my babies. Hang in there- you are in my thoughts and prayers :)
Don't you just love how fasting helps you feel the peace! I am grateful for the confirmation of the Spirit to you during this difficult time. The Lord loves you, your family and especially little Carter. He knows you and he knows your strength, even if you don't. This is the greatest lesson I have learned in my own illness. He really will not leave you alone. Prayers and love from the heart!
I loved this. I also love the man who was holding up his arms:) That man was also fasting for you that day. What a team our ward can be! Thank you thank you thank you for posting and being the light and inspiration you are!
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